I'm an extremely indecisive person. It's one of the few things i can't stand about myself. however after having stress and anxiety about life after high school and everything that follows, I've been able to make a decision.
Through my three years up to this point I had no idea what I was going to do with my life and If the choice I made would work out. For the longest time I started telling myself that I could just go into film and it was something that I would be seen doing so might as well do it. It never felt right to me though, I do love editing, from videos to pictures I think it's fun and I've got some skills and knowledge surrounding editing. When I would tell myself I was going to be a film or tv editor, or just be in the film industry I wasn't relieved that I'd found my thing, it never settled. I do think we should come out of our comfort zones and the whole "yolo" thing but this was something I wasn't willing to wing like my eyeliner. It wasn't til these past few weeks that I rediscovered my childhood dream of teaching. When I used to talk about becoming a teacher many people began telling me not to go into education because of how terrible the pay is, especially in Arizona and I think that's why it was out of my mind so much. When I began to tell myself this was an option and something within my reach I felt calm, finally at ease. It's been very comforting and exciting, this is only the beginning to the many things and choices goin on this final year of high school and I'll be writing about them too but for now this discovery is it. :)
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